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just what is life?
im not tryin to be fucking philosophical here okay, just tell me if you know the answer. one of those damn questions which no one, and i really bet my life on, no one, knows the answer to.
is it all just eating drinking smoking clubbing sleeping enjoying life?
whats the point la seriously, whats the point.
im going to try to change my life.
im sick of this lifestyle.
no use trying to discourage me. if you want to, give me the answer to the above question first.
let's talk about eating.
what do you get out of it? be it $2 char kuay teow or $100 steak from lawry's. still filling your tummy aint it. you gonna shit it out anyway.
how about drinking smoking clubbing.
just dont talk about smoking. i cant stop it, but i fucking hate it.
drinking. i kinda like drinking and clubbing, but so? in the end when youre at home, its back to this whole emptiness thing isnt it. be it getting high or getting drunk, whatever, what the hell do you get out of it? defuckinghydration. clubbing, ha! dolling up and going there, dancing a couple of hours of your life away?? or what, socialising, or networking?? dont get me started. snort. whats it in being dressed up all pretty and going there and talking about nothing but bullshit? the clubbing life is full of crap.
how about sleeping.
i cant even get a good sleep these days. i think i slept too much in sec sch. so people sleep, and you feel energised. then? you gonna lose that energy sooner or later, you age.
enjoying life.
how do you enjoy life? by doing something meaningful? define meaningful.
earning money and donating it to charity, or going to spca and adopting a few puppies. i dont know.
or some people enjoy it by, namely, drinking smoking clubbing good food.
sighhhhhh.
what is up these days.
like by going to school and doing well in school shows youre good. ha! in singapore, doing well in school just shows youre only good at regurgitating all the textbook shit. unless youre in design or something else of course.
why else do you think we have teachers? its just cuz theyre not good in what theyve learnt. doh, you think those who teach business wouldnt want to earn a few hundred thousand buckaroos? if they can actually make it, they wouldnt be teaching. so, you know what they say: those who cant do, teach.
so why are we here if we cant even prove ourselves either way?
its back to square one again.
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ughhhh i feel like throwing up. puke out all the bad shit in my life.
WAH LAN EH, i need to sleep la, before i get more cranky and think more.
hmm.
got the answer to one question at least...
